“Your grandfather has passed away.”
These five words definitely had shattered me within a moment of seconds.
I was in the middle of preparing for finals when I heard this horrible news, and I clearly remember that it was close to midnight. I looked around the library and except for two to three people there was no one there. I stared back at the computer screen and tears filled up my eyes.
I didn’t know what I should do at that point. My family wasn’t with me and I was in a library in the middle of the night with a couple of people I barely knew. The point at which I felt I would sob and melt down in tears was when I ran out of the study room into the hallway. I slid down on the wall and buried my face into my hands and cried my eyes out.
After a few minutes I heard someone walking towards me. It was the man who I saw at the library every night trying to prepare for medical school.
He leaned down towards me and assured me that everything will be fine. This assurance meant the world to me at the time, and for some reason I felt the tears drying up on my cheeks. You know when you see the same people every day you usually don’t think any thing of it, but that day I understood how significant the people you see every day are.
The point of this story is not to get any sympathy, nor is it to tell you about the stranger although it was essential I talk about that.
The most important part from all that I have said above is that my family and I were planning on going to visit my grandfather that summer. There are so many times we delay things for later on, but as they said in one popular indian movie how do you even know you will be alive later on?
The time is now my friends. Don’t let it go and capture memories, because you never know what may come tomorrow. I don’t want to look back on life and ever say that I could’ve done that, or wait…why didn’t I do that? These questions would haunt me when I am older, and trust me me that feeling wouldn’t be the one I would want to live with.
Make a list of what is most important to you in the present moment and make sure you attend to those things, because you will realize down the road that you kept pushing it further and further away…and by that time the things on your list may not even exist.
I miss you grandpa..and I will always work towards making you proud. I shouldn’t have thought about going to visit you that summer, I should have just went. I have learned to live in the present from this experience and it has only helped me grow. Hopefully, you can reflect on a few things in your life too my friends and I am always here to talk!
Manisha Sareen 🙂